Wow, I first came here to a blank page and got freaked out . . . then realized that like all the other confusing metaphors around me, this was another one - starting a new page, marked by this date . . .

Today is March 17 here. In NY, in the pertinent place I guess, it is still March 16. It is still Drew's birthday. It is still the day before our lives changed forever. But in New Zealand, it's St. Patrick's day.

People are traipsing around the streets already - 12:30 in the afternoon, and I sit here in bed trying to reconcile what to do with this day.

The confusion of these dates is getting the better of me. Am I supposed to be sad now? Tomorrow? March 17 as a universal reminder sucks to be quite honest. Happy people everywhere, big MARCH 17 strewn across banners everywhere, and all I want to do is cry.

Thinking about which day (my March 17 or yours) to 'mourn' has me wondering whether mourning is the right way to handle this. I can't help but let this date bring back memories of that late night phonecall, of uncontrollable tears, of the worst week of my life to date.

But earmarking it to this day in the confusion of it still being March 16 at home makes me think that maybe picking a date to be 'sad' isn't the right approach. . . Annie & Karen must be under the same confusion as I today.

I guess all I can do is use these next days, be it one or two, to try not to be sad - to try to forget the horrors of that night, that week, and try to just use it as a remembrance. Maybe I can get the March 17 signs everywhere that will forever connect to Sunil to be a way that I have him close to me as this day approaches.

It is just his style to have left this earth on a day where so many people are out there celebrating life. Maybe he wanted it to be really really difficult for us to be sad this day.

Well Sunil, I hope I can eventually smile on this date. For now it is just too painful. But I will try.

My start is to say that for me, as I begin my New Zealand March 17, I will sit and remember our moments in the courtyard, your Sunil hugs, our endless phone conversations, that voice that was the one I went to with things I couldn't talk to anyone else about - the brother I had never had. I'll try to honor the lives we talked about leading - and remember those things this day.

Oh. And it figures. We've had 40 degree weather with high winds and rain the last week. BUT today in Christchurch New Zealand - its 86 and sunny. Yes babe, I know you are here with me!

Sunil, we still miss you, and it's still hard thinking about how bright you are and how much you should still be here. But over the past year I've seen your friends and family come here with uncountable stories of how you've touched them in their daily lives, and in their dreams. Thank you for that. I hope your life is as much of a dream right now as it should be.

Love,
Melissa

One year ago this day our lives changed forever. I pray that you have found eternal peace, love and happiness. I ask that you continue to keep an eye out for Uncle, Aunty, Nisse, Shinu, Jonathan and your friends here.

We all miss you terribly and still have not come to understand why something like this happened.

PS - If you could talk to God and ask him for warm and sunny days on March 17 from here on out, we would appreciate it.

Lots of love always.

Last year I was on a plane to Las Vegas this very day. And I was actually at the Grand Canyon when Christina finally got through to me on my cell and told me the news. The moment was surreal. I was still in shock when we laid you to rest, Sunil, and languid for the following weeks. Your passing though re-lit a spirit that I had buried for some time. I wish you could've helped me in another way because I wish you were still here. I wish for a lot of things, but if I'm going to wish for something that can happen, I wish that everyone you've touched has the strength each day and each year to appreciate life, appreciate your memories, and just be inspired to do the best they can everyday. We miss you so much!

Love,
Rose

Hey Sunil,

It's been awhile... I was IM'ing with Rose before and she mentioned that it's been a year. Hard to believe, huh? I know that I hadn't seen you in awhile, but reading all of the posts from your friends and family is really freaking hilarious. I literally burst out laughing every so often. Must be really, really hard on everyone who had you in their lives every single day... :( Unfortunately, I can only remember 2 funny things about you. (1) Spring break in Miami, the rest of us would go to sun on the beach but you decided to go jogging all over downtown Miami cuz you didn't want to get any darker...oh yeah and also the night we all decided to stay in and order fried chicken vs. going out to a club (quite the spring breakers we were).. you heaped a whole pile of food and ate it laying down with the plate on your chest. "too muuuuch chiiicken"... (2) there was the time I was over at the apt in hell's kitchen... i was eating some of Drew's cookies and you were like, oh feel free to bring them into the room to eat... I was like, no I'm fine thanks... but actually you meant, so that you could eat them... this was also when you were trying to teach yourself Spanish. Saw you at some point later and wow, you were fluent. Wha?!?! You so smart ;)

Take care of all those people who love you. I hope that they can find some moments to feel a bit better and not be so sad. Especially your mom and dad.

"Kao"

i can't believe it's been a year. the memories are still so fresh and i still think about you every day.

my sadness hasn't subsided in the least and i miss you more and more all the time.

at the same time, i think about the last few times we hung out and it makes me smile.... you are truly irreplaceable my friend. our lives are exponentially better having had you in them.

wishing you all the peace and happiness you deserve

Wish I could have went to pali today --

I am trying to think of how you experienced St. Patty's Day here in the City living on John --

Turns out I'm moving into a new apartment there next semester. Can't wait to experience the day to day activities of John St Bar & The secret two for one smoke shop that you let me in on. The wonders of being a "Manhattanite." =)

We all miss you. A year has gone by so quickly, yet unbearingly slow.

Thinking of you...

wow. time flys by really fast. i still cant believe its been a year since you left us. i really dont know if i should be happy or sad today. i see alot of ppl are confused abt the same thing. i really dont know what to say either. i just hope u watch over everyone in ur family. i dont remember spending much time with you but my mom told me when i was little you played with us and stuff. i wish i could remember that. there are some memories with you that i will never forget. all i can say is that we all really miss you & that we all love you.

Last year this time I was in Worcester getting ready to go to Boston to celebrate St. Patricks Day. I always heard Boston’s St. Patricks Day was something you shouldn’t miss. Being so excited the whole day, and in one second when Terry called me everything shattered into pieces. This very day I lost my oldest cousin brother and there was nothing I could do about it. So March 17th has come, the date we all dread. One year has passed, and only God knows how we came this far. I’m sorry Sunilchachan I couldn’t make it to New York today. You know I tried so hard and yet I’m in Dallas mourning on this day. All I have is my memories with you, pictures, and of course the infamous videos of you singing. I hope you find peace in heaven and please give us the strength everyday to understand why you were taken away from us. I miss you sooo much and I can’t wait until the day I’ll be able to see you and talk to you again. I love you.

We miss you.

One year passed so quickly, yet so slowly!

I can't believe it's been a year already. We miss you, Sunil, and we love you.

Its been a year! Wow! I miss u! Hope the big guys keepin u company up there.Sending u my love!

Its been a year! Wow! I miss u! Hope the big guys keepin u company up there.Sending u my love!

Hey Sun,
Well, how do I start? It has been a year since you have been gone. Obviously March 17th was the worst day in our lives but yesterday, the Wednesday after your death, was a close second. It was the last day I saw your handsome face, touched your body and buried you with a piece of my heart locked inside of that box. Wednesday, one year ago, I tried to freeze all of the pictures of you inside my head. There was such a long line of people who wanted to pay their last respects and I just kept thinking, "Move over just a little bit so I can see him...just for a little while longer before I can never see him again." It was the day when I was forced to except that I had to let daddy cover your face, I had to let them lock you in that box and I was forced to let them put you in the ground. I am your big sister and I couldn't protect you. I couldn't stop any of them. Yesterday was one year since I last saw your face...I miss it so.

Hi. How are you? Where are you? I saw a few more smiles in your house that day. Did anyone mention the wind at your Ormadivasam? Susan Aunty mentioned that maybe you were there to say hello.

I have to go. Be well.
JAMY

Hey Sunil,

So this is the 2nd Easter without you and as usual, things just don't feel the same. Everything feels empty but I try not to let myself dwell on it otherwise depression will takeover. It's hard though to not just lose it sometimes, especially when I am alone. I hope you can visit me soon for my birthday. It would be nice just to talk to you even if you aren't going to say anything back.

take care buddy. i miss you

Hey Sun,

We are taking the baby to his first Mets game on Saturday. I am so excited. I know it will be cold and we probably won't stay long but still, I hope a few of your rays will shine down on us.

miss you so

chechi

Sunil-

Thx for the visit before Easter. I passed on your greetings to your mom and dad. Looking forward to chatting soon.

Lots of love always,

Tommy

Sunil-

I just watched the cheesecake video again. Man that was funny stuff. Good times, good times!!

Just when I think I am doing so well, the thought of you pulls me crashing down to earth. Jui and I celebrated the Yankees win over the A's on their home turf tonight...and only YOU would truly appreciate just how much that means! A's fans were calling us the most vulgar names, and yet we continued wearing our Yankees gear with pride...screaming back at them until the very end, when they finally pulled through with a 4-3 victory! I thought of how your voice would have sounded if I had called you at that very moment...I know you would have laughed that infamous "Sunil" laugh and given me kudos for being so tough while avoiding getting knifed by an "A's" fan!

I miss you Sunil...I really do. Nothing is the same...and noone can replace you. You anger me while leaving me in hopeless despair. Over one year, and I feel like it's "that day" all over again. It's quite funny how long one year feels while it seems like just yesterday, I saw your face for the very last time.

So I was hanging out with some of the guys last night at the American India Foundation fundraiser -- being the young student of yours, I was slightly passive in meeting all these new people who are way, WAY more successful in various fields than I am! You would have been PERFECT for this event, schmoozing with everyone!

So after Jai seeing me worry, he hands me a hankerchief to drop the sweat drops on my face - and lo' behold, I see the initals, "SIV" in black lettering at the bottom of it...

Just another reminder you are with us in spirit. I miss our random talks on politics and such, or the wonders of living in Lower Manhattan.

I'm moving into an apt on John St next year! Living the life of the "Manhattanite" you are. It'll be fun, but I miss your advice, your debates, your voice, and strangely, your memorable laugh.

We miss you. I miss you.

We dont think of you as gone away
Your Journey's just begun
Life hold so many facets
This Earth is only one.

We just think of you as resting
From the sorrows, pain & tears
In a place of warmth & comfort
Where there are no days and years

We think how you must be wishing
That we could know today
How nothing but our sadness
Can really pass away

We think of you as living
In the hearts of those you touched
For nothing loved is ever lost
And you were loved so much .

Sunil, this weekend was great, but you were missed. I kept thinking that you were there somewhere, in the house, maybe standing off in the woods watching all of us enjoy each other's company. Standing with your arms crossed, a grin on your face maybe even breaking into a smile as you heard the jokes fly back and forth. I have to believe that you were there, I almost felt your presence. I miss you.

Hey angel,
Thanks for the visit this morning. It just seemed so real which is probably why i suddenly woke up much earlier than i usually do and had a hard time going back to sleep...which I have noticed is usually the case when you come to visit. I was so happy in realizing that i actually saw you again. But what was with the dancing?? And you laughed so much...and i laughed at you laughing. There always seems to be a party whenever you're around! But i think most of all this morning i realized how happy you are there with God,and how it is so amazing that you just know when a person needs a visit from heaven. Thanks for seeing that sunil. You are so good at that, and this is not the first time you did me that favor. Just pray really really hard for all of us. You are missed and loved so dearly. Feel free to fly by and and rest your wings in my dreams anytime.

A few new pics of JSV

Hey Sun,

Yesterday was a big day for us. It was Jonathan's first birthday. He was so happy and had a great time. Unfortunately, it was very late by the time we were able to cut the cake so he was a little grumpy. There is this black and white picture of you cutting your first birthday cake in India. You had cake and frosting all over your hands and face. So, I bought a cake for the baby to just "play" with so we could get some of those pictures too. Well, I guess he is more like the adult version of you than I realized because he stuck one finger in the icing, and decided he didn't like the texture and would not go near the cake. I tried so hard to get him to make a mess but he wasn’t having it. All he wanted us to do was to clean off his little hands. I am surprised he didn’t ask for some Purell.

I really missed you yesterday. I know you would have done something outrageous and crazy. Something only a credit card could buy after lots of research. And it would be guaranteed to drive Shin and I nuts. We are really missing this image of the uncle you would have been. There is no substitute and I will just have to have my fantasies to keep me laughing.

We missed you yesterday but you were there in our hearts.

Chechi

Sup dude....
How are ya...I know it's been a long time since I or anyone for that matter has written on the site. I hope you don't think that people have forgotten about you. I do some type of weird thing in my head every morning to sit there and reflect about you for a minute or two before I start my day. I guess it's my little safety blanket way of making sure I remember you every day of my life.

I just had another hit of that right now. As I sit here at 4:45pm on Friday, I was just trying to kill some time before I get out of here and I was wondering what I could do to pass the time. Again, I thought about calling you like I have done sooo many times. We could have talked about our plans for the weekend, my RED HOT Yankees and your ICE COLD Mets playing this weekend. I'm pretty sure we would be figuring out where to watch the game tonight.

I still miss you like crazy buddy. I know you guys were there with us in Mexico for the wedding; but the presence of you and Vinu were sorely missed.

Take care dude and remember.....GO YANKEES!!!

whats up buddy? i saw you again in recent days, thank you. How have you been, well I'm sure. I know you know whats happening. Thank you for all the positive energy, the ideas are swirling around my head like crazy and i thank you.

I played softball with the guys a couple of weeks ago, i wish i could have done it when you were here. Pretty sure you would have said something irratating, got everyone bent then just laughed it off. Boy we miss that. It is not the same.

We look forward to our conversation in the coming days. Pls visit us especially at FWGL IV. I will save a chair.

Hey.. what's going on? Yeah, it's been a while since I wrote. Your parents were in my dream last night. You and your fam are always on my mind (along with a lot of things). I'm still making the same mistakes :) As you can probably tell, some things never change. Do me a favor and look after my friend Marie. She's going through a tough time right now. She's a good girl. She deserves better. Talk to you soon.

Sup Sunil

Been missing you at softball big time. Games are getting intense and we got no one to break the tension. I hope I get to hear you soon. take care up there and please look out for us all.

Hey, Sunil. I have not written in a while and I apologize for that. Boy -- the ol man at work is soooo annoying. You always understood my plight with the ol man. Anyway, I continue to think about you always and miss you dearly. Mad love.

Hi sun,
Yah, i guess i am also guilty of not writing in quite some time. So i apologize with the many others. I just wanted to say hi; haven't heard from you or seen you in a while. I guess youre enjoying yourself and the many others around you to be visiting in dreams these days.
Well, i guess you must know how things are going down here. We're praying for your family without a doubt, with the understanding that everything is in God's hands and only He can make miracles happen. So, i guess that's what i have been praying for lately..miracles. And to tell you the truth, some have happened, but more yet to come. I guess the time is just not right these days. Youve got some convincing to do up there.
Our perunnal is right around the corner. Im excited this year! It's going to be a winner with Makarios thirumeni. I have no doubt that you'll be there, where u always are.
Love and prayers always.

Sunnnnnniillllll!!!!

Was looking through some old pics of the 5th & Douglass and it brought to mind our very first days there. Moving in the middle of summer was not the most pleasant of experiences but you made it amusing. Then after we were all settled in, it got even hotter. When I saw you sleeping with your head out the window letting the stench filled air of 5th Avenue cool you off, the AC became the #1 priority. Those days were full of laughter, comradery and many fried half chickens. I wish you took the offer of living on the couch for the summer, we would of "cut sleep right out of the schedule" everyday. Miss you man!! There is not a day that goes by where I don't hear echoes of your laughter.

hey... how u been? apparently todays the luckest day of the century 7/7/07/, funny huh? Unfortunately didn't feel any different. Still the same old story. Problems didn't go away, no ones struck it rich, and without you life is just been one big blah. no motivation to do anything. I remembered how you'd used to give me advise i needed to hear when i needed it and console me and tell me to not to worry about stuff when life's pressures sometimes seemed to heavy. I sometimes feel like i've changed...into a colder person...not knowing what the future holds for me....and not even caring. As in the words of the great Austin Powers, "I've lost my MOJO!". idk. Drop in sometimes, dont be a stranger.

i miss you. i really miss you. sorry i have been so selfish. please forgive me.

Some day, when I’m awfully low,
When the world is cold,
I will feel a glow just thinking of you...
And the way you look tonight.

Yes you’re lovely, with your smile so warm
And your cheeks so soft,
There is nothing for me but to love you,
And the way you look tonight.

With each word your tenderness grows,
Tearing my fear apart...
And that laugh that wrinkles your nose,
It touches my foolish heart.

Lovely ... never, ever change.
Keep that breathless charm.
Won’t you please arrange it ?
’cause I love you ... just the way you look tonight.

Mm, mm, mm, mm,
Just the way you look to-night.

Miss your smile Sunil. By Your Side...Still.

Some day, when I’m awfully low,
When the world is cold,
I will feel a glow just thinking of you...
And the way you look tonight.

Yes you’re lovely, with your smile so warm
And your cheeks so soft,
There is nothing for me but to love you,
And the way you look tonight.

With each word your tenderness grows,
Tearing my fear apart...
And that laugh that wrinkles your nose,
It touches my foolish heart.

Lovely ... never, ever change.
Keep that breathless charm.
Won’t you please arrange it ?
’cause I love you ... just the way you look tonight.

Mm, mm, mm, mm,
Just the way you look to-night.

Miss your smile Sunil. By Your Side...Still.

Hey Sunil-
Was thinking about you tons when I was in NYC this past week. Wish you were around to hang out. Miss you lots.

Thanks brother, needed a little good news today.

Hey Sunil,
Just passing through to drop you some love. I went out to dinner a few weeks ago with the family and there was a cocktail shrimp that was ordered as an appetizer. I couldn't help but think of you and how you beasted on cocktail shrimp at Tom chachen's house for Thanksgiving that year. It cracked me up....

Anyway, hope you are safe, healthy and happy. Please say hello to Pappa. Much love always....God Bless

What's up buddy? Today is your favorite day.. I'm about to head out for FWGL IV and just wanted to say hey. Prasanth has done a great job in organizing as usual. We're gonna miss you today. We'll drink a few for you. Keep us all safe today.

I miss you Sunil, I really miss you.

crappy day "at the office." no current and beads of sweat were running down my face. I pulled a hanky out of the pocket and i smiled seeing your initials on it. Nice reminder that you're always around us.

I think you really would've loved the spread we had yesterday at the concert.I miss your antics and jokes that made us all laugh til it hurt. Miss you brother.

Come visit me Sunil, haven't seen you since that night you were leaning on the cane. what was that all about?

Yo -- what's up dude? Just doin' the periodic check in to let you know that I am thinking of you. I hope you're not mad when the Mets fold down the stretch. OMW sends his love. Peace.

Sunnnilll!!!
You know exactly when to visit!! Thank you for being so great. Yah..these past few weeks have been no "rose garden" for me, and seeing you just makes things a little rosier. It's comforting to know that someone is thinking of you when you are at your worst. i liked your story... about how you were just away for sometime, and that you hadn't passed away, and that you were actually alive all this time. Ofcourse, everyone had a hard time believing you, but in the end we were sooo relieved and sooo happy to see you with us, to hear you tell us that you are alive. I was thrilled...until i woke up and realized it was all a dream. Boy that cold blow of reality hit me like a ton of bricks all over again that morning! What a tease, sunil!
And you and that gray sweater! You must really like that sweater..don't know where you got it from, but you have it on every time you come to visit. Oh well, i don't care what you wear, so long as you come to comfort me from time to time. Thanks again for that message, and i hope all those who love you believe, just as i do, that you are with us all the time. We know, sunil, we know you had just gone somewhere for some time, and you are still alive. We just misunderstood, that's all.
Lots of love and prayers.

Thinking of you man. Stop by and visit when you can.

So someone told me today that I need to go somewhere and have a good cry. I'm scared to open those floodgates again but maybe that's what I need. You are still in my thoughts, and maybe some day soon I will have the courage to play all those songs on my ipod that remind me of you. I miss you so much, wish i could relive that cab ride with you, me, Rach and Mano on the way to FWGL yrs ago when you were screaming at us to get out of the cab so the fare would stay at an even $5.00 and not go over to $5.10. I don't think me and Rach ever laughed so hard. I hope I see you soon.

I think sometimes how are we able to move forward without you? I tell stories about our past, we laugh and smile. It makes us feel better to remember. It eases us through life. It helps me.

Thinking of you.

I am having a tough day buddy... Can you drop by and give me some good news? Sorry I haven't visited in a while.

Sup man, wonder how much longer it's going to be until we cross paths again. I am off to cali tomorrow, stopping by wine country of course. Hope you can visit me soon. Miss you like always.

Hey Sunil....looks like they finally cut your cell phone. (You must have had some great credit for it to stay on this long:) I would call your cell whenever i needed to talk to you and was in need of a boost. I would 1st get to hear you voice, which i loved, then i was able to talk to you, vent my frustations about my own short-comings and how much this world pissed me off. Even though i can't leave you messeges anymore i know you still listen to all of us when we call on you. So please say a prayer for me and come visit soon. (Even though i haven't visited you in a while). I miss you so much!

i'm sorry that i haven't been stopped by or talked to you in a long while. it's been a tough time. things are busy but i find myself consummed with so many things that don't really matter.

do we make you laugh while you are looking over us? i wish i could share in those laughs with you. i miss you. miss your smile and laugh the most. =)

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong
I know better
Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew?

Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
Oh no
No no
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I'd give anything

When someone said count your blessings now
Before they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who knew?

Yeah yeah
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened?

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kiss
I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling
Who knew?
My darling
My darling
Who knew?
My darling
I miss you
My darling
Who knew?
Who knew?

Miss you. Been a while, but I miss you.

I ended up in Greece in august, and sat down at an Irish pub in Santorini, Elliot & I had just been talking about you...and green day starts playing. I think since we always shared music, you decided that you would remind me you were watching out for me that way. I always seem to hear a song that reminds me of you when I need it the absolute most.

Love & Miss you...

I know you must be laughing your tail off at us tonight. Just shaking your head and laughing. Miss you brother!

Hey dude. Just sitting here thinking of you. You bring inspiration to me always. Hope you are well -- I know you are. Keep smilin, bro!

hey u,
i was just watching that "cheescake" video. I was thinking to myself, "paavam sunil..the things they made u do for a good laugh"... but couldnt help but laugh myself! You were a true sport sunil. It's still so hard to believe that that laughter has been quieted. It just doesn't make sense. Did u ever have a bad day,sunil? Was there a day that where u never laughed at something or someone??
Anyway..just thought i'd drop by and say hi. Remember to visit ur parents. They need to see u.

hey u,
i was just watching that "cheescake" video. I was thinking to myself, "paavam sunil..the things they made u do for a good laugh"... but couldnt help but laugh myself! You were a true sport sunil. It's still so hard to believe that that laughter has been quieted. It just doesn't make sense. Did u ever have a bad day,sunil? Was there a day that where u never laughed at something or someone??
Anyway..just thought i'd drop by and say hi. Remember to visit ur parents. They need to see u.

i wonder how many other people out there type something up to say to you but never hit post. Sometimes you just can't. I understand.

Can't wait to toast in your honor. take care brother

Sometimes this world is very cruel and unfair. I'm sure everyone that comes to this page feels the same way. I know there is a reason for it all. I wish I knew what it was. Thinking about you. Have a good Thanksgiving up there.

miss you my friend

your birthday is in an hour and all I can think about is how perfect tomorrow night would have been.
We'll be raising our glasses to you.
We miss you.

Happy Birthday brother!! I miss you so much, make sure you come have a drink with us later today.

happy birthday my friend. we'll raise our j&c's for you tonight, thanks for bringing us all together, yet again. love and miss you...

Hey Sun,

Called mommy yesterday at midnight. She was so sad. We miss you terribly. I can't wait to see all your friends tonight. Maybe it will be like my dream where I see you in the crowd. I hope you will be there to join us.

Love you more than words can show! Going to show baby some of your videos now. He is so much like you!

Chechi

Happy 30th Birthday Sunil, so sorry you are not here to celebrate it with your family and friends. We will do our best to honor you tonight and remember what a great person you were.

Happy Birthday man...
i wished that we could've celebrated our birthdays together one day...now I'll take what i can get... we miss you a lot

Happy Birthday Bro...Sorry I haven't been here in a while...my whole family still thinks of you...got that great pic of you on my fridge...jaya looks at that and says some jibberish....maybe u are talking to her...

will toast some JD tonite in your honor.

I love you.

Happy Birthday again...
I already sent you a birthday wish via email like us Yonkers guys have done ever since email became our daily form of communication. The weird part about it is that my email to: sunil@heaven.com did not return to me "undelivered". I found that intriguing.

It has been a long long time since I have written anything on this site. Part of me thinks that my thoughts and stories of you should just be between you and I. Part of me aches with the feeling that I am starting to make life altering decisions in my life and I don't have you as my sound board. I realize that my life must go on, but I do not want you to think that I have forgotten what you have meant to me and my family. I said Happy Birthday to my Dad this morning and once again the pain of you not being around was evident on his face.

We are gathering tonight thanks to the planning of your Chechi and your big Brother. I am looking forward to seeing all the familar faces that would gather for your birthday parties every year. I will do my best and try to celebrate tonight as you would want us to. I will try and emulate what you told me the night of your 21st birthday: "Dude, it's your job as my best friend to get loaded" I just hope I'm not sitting out on a curb at 4am again like that night as all of you laughed and ate cheesburgers at Cozy's.

There are such a mix feeling of emotions that I go through. I miss you sooo much, but then I get angry that you are not around to help. Two of us in particular counted on you sooooo much. We have been lost without you. However, the lessons that you taught us are getting us to deal with it and bringing us back together again. Thanks for that. I don't know where I would be without the two of you.

Alright brother, enjoy your day up there. I wonder how many people you must be annoying in regards to telling them about your birthday. Take care Bro...GodSpeed

Happy Birthday my friend...hope you get to spend a little time with each of us today. Miss you. You'd be happy to know that Clemens was on roids when he threw that bat at Piazza. :-)

thank you. thank you for tonight. so many people coming together. we're so excited to see one another. yes, it will be a bit bitter sweet, but something tells me there will be more smiles than anything. thank you. i truly think you'd be proud of us today.

hey sunilchachen its been a year man time goes by so fast now days i still miss u i wish i could have spent more time with u but thats how life is i hope ur good

I LOVE U
the cuz that u picked on
CHRIS

Happy Birthday Sunil!
i know its almost a week late...forgive me

but i thought of you that day!

I love you bro, wish i could have known you more!

Cant wait till that day...

Your b-day party was nice.. It was good to see everyone again. I 've been thinking about you a lot lately. I was talking to one of my co-workers about you and he had been thinking about you too. You've had a big impact on people's lives. I hope you know that. I'm not a big fan of the holidays. It's always somber for me. This year seems a lot sadder for some reason. Watch over everyone if you can. Thanks for listening to me babble.

Merry Christmas buddy..

Merry Christmas Sunil

Merry Christmas Sunil, Miss you and love you

Happy New Year buddy. Please watch over all your family and friends in the new year. Looking forward to our meeting, love you bro.

Hey Sunil - I am sorry I missed your b-day party - I so wish I was there. It's a new year and I have lots of things to look back on and lots of things to look forward to. However, one thing has NOT CHANGED. And that's your smile shining down on on me and all of us that are blessed to know you. Have a wonderful new year. You're the MAN!

i miss you. just wanted to let you know i love you.

What up Sunil!! You've been on my mind a lot lately. I miss you brother! But I know you are around and with all of us all the time. I love you!

Did you get to watch the Super Bowl up there tonight? =)

Did you get to watch the Super Bowl up there tonight? =)

Hahaha...Yeah!! Congratulations Brother on your Super Bowl Champion...New York Giants! What a game last night. After Brady hit Moss with that TD Pass and Eli ran on that field all I could think about was you. I said outloud as I sat in my basement alone..."Come on dude, talk to somebody and let's make this happen!!" As Eli methodically made his way down field Toomer here, Jacobs up the middle, Tyree w/ the circus catch and then the most underrated play the 3rd and 10 completion to Steve Smith; then the TD pass to Plax...all I can say is WOW!

Man, I miss you sooo much dude, especially during situations like this. I can't believe our bet is now soooo close. For those that don't know, Sunil and I made a bet after the 2004 Draft. The Giants had paid a ransom for Eli Manning and my Steelers had taken our next generation QB Ben Roethlisberger. Our bet consisted of who would win more Super Bowls and the tie-breaker is QB Passer Rating after five years. Our wager...what else a steak dinner at Sparks Steakhouse. This bet looked like a slam dunk for me because the Steelers had won a Super Bowl two years ago, and the Giants were going nowhere up till 45 days ago. Now all of a sudden our bet is almost a dead heat! Big Ben still has the better passer rating (92.5 compared to 73.4) but now the championships are even.

I am thinking that we should just call this bet a push (tie). Simply amazing. I will see you at Sparks my friend!!!

Your Dad is Amazing!

We miss you.

I miss you. You are everywhere lately...and you know why. The next couple of months will be so exciting and yet so hard...and I need to feel that you are still with me, now more than ever. I love you. I miss everything about you...and I think about what life would be like if you were still here. Wherever you are...I know you are happy...but it would be lovely to see your face in my dreams. Come and visit.

Hey Sun,

Well, here we go again... Another one of those countdowns to St. Sunil's Day. Everywhere we go we see these balloons for St. Patty's and the baby is so obsessed with balloons that everytime he spots one, it just feels like someone is punching me in the stomach.

The baby is so like you some times. Seriously, we may need early intervention for him now to prevent him from doing things like cleaning your contacts for 10 minutes or always needing wet wipes for the bathroom. Did i mention his favorite thing to eat is wings? How did that happen?

Miss you. This sucks.

Chechi

Hey Buddy. We are closing in on that painful day, and it breaks my heart. A few weeks ago, you came to me in my sleep. It was you, Josh, and myself. We were walking somewhere, and you started making fun of Josh. Of course Josh had to retaliate with a putdown. God I miss the banter so much. Thanks for showing up Sunil. It brought a smile to me that morning.

Take care buddy.

Hey buddy.. It's gonna be a long weekend. I'll be thinking about you.

I am truly jealous! … Not only are you in the company of all our forefathers and Christ himself, but now… You are with Makarios Therumeni also. Take care of him for us. I know you are telling us not to cry…But its hard!…Now I know how it feels.

Till that day we meet again friend…Pray and intercede for us!

Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

hey babe
long time . . . crazy how much has happened, and how much stays the same. . . a wise friend reminded me tonight that we are all still family - and when asked how I was doing right around midnight tonight by melis, I surprised myself by answering "time heals." It has helped, but it hasn't fully healed, but missing you has changed. It is more a source of strength now - there is still sadness, there always will be, but there are glimmers and realizations that you've helped us get stronger. My office just moved. 6th ave and 50th street. Talk about a test of strength getting out of the subway every day. 2 years ago, I would have had to work somewhere else, it would have been too hard. Now, I walk by and I picture your face - every day - kind of helps. . .

Anyway, typical rambling, all the usual that you know - love you, miss you . . . hope you are watching and are happy

today is 2 years to the day that you were taken from us. and i still think about you all the time. your memory has both inspired me, and also helped me have some perspective in times where i've been challenged. i miss you more than i will ever be able to say.... and i'm so lucky to have had the gift of your friendship.

Sunil,

its still hard, you are missed, its hard to express, time hasn't helped... watch over us.

always in our thoughts

Yesterday was Palm Sunday at church; the message brought you to mind. Christ road into Jerusalem without granduer bravely confronting his destiny. He didn't look back, but looked forward to what was to come for he understood greatness and eternal life were ahead.

You were a galiant spirit that forged ahead and sought out the best for everyone.

My heart still breaks with a yearning to witness your beautiful smile. Miss and love you immensely. Keep looking out for us as we look out for each other.

Sunil - its been a tough road man. you're greatly missed by everyone. today is 2 years and my heart breaks anew. i wish we could of skipped 3/17/06, that way you would be with us.

We miss and love you, Sunil.

just because time goes by doesn't mean life gets easy.
but the joy from a memory sure can make that time a bit more pleasing.
a beer, a shot, a stoge...miss the good ol' times!
one love brother.

hi sunil,
well....that day is here again. Sometimes it feels like it only happened yesterday...but then again..at times it feels like youve been gone wayyy too long. Your picture has been sitting on top of my bible since March began. And every time i look at it, i can almost hear my father's voice on the phone telling me the news. I can feel the heat from baby uncle and moni anti's tears. Nothing much has changed, sunil. Everyone is just...u know..living. Just about 15 minutes ago I heard the song that Nisse quoted from at your funeral, "...it's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right. I hope you had the time of your life." Im sure u did, and i know u still are-with Makarios Thirumeni up there. Someone mentioned that they were jealous of you for that...well, so am i!
We love you, and I pray that you are happy and at peace. I pray that God continues to give your family the strength to live.

may your memories warm the hearts of all that are missing you...your in our thoughts and prayers

Hey man...so its been 2 years already... time goes by so fast sometimes... miss you alot... its crazy how many peoples lives you've touched even if they never met you...but anyway..watch over ur parents and sister...they really need rite now as well as the rest of us...

Another year has passed, however the thoughts have not faded. Always thinking of you, brother.

Anil

its been 2 years! thanks for watching over all of us. i know you have. thanks. we all miss you.

Hello Sunil,

I celebrated you today by going to our old watering hole Reservoir and retelling stories of our past. I can still picture you there standing there with that grin. I miss you brother, always will. Watch over us as we try to live without you. Until we meet again.

Sup Pal, I miss you brah, and LOVE you. It's been 2 long years thanks for watching over all of us. Continue to watch over Ancle, Aunty, Niss, Shin and baby Jon, they really need you right now as well as the rest of us.

By the way I finally replaced the TV you broke and got me a 55 inch.
Stay away from it...

Sunnnnillll!

Two years without yelling your name as I greeted you. Miss the energy that you always used to bring. I hope you have a smile looking down at us today. Love ya man.

Two years.. I still wish i could trade places with you. Life is hard and it seems to be getting harder. Not sure about what I am doing now. Wish you were here to make me laugh and take my mind of things. Love you kid.. watch over us all.

Sunnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!

I need you now brah. Time are getting tough and I need someone to talk to and who else better but you.

It's been a tough week for me. Haven't been visiting this page as much as I did in the past. Life is moving on at a fast pace. But, yet when I read the clippings on this page and when I look at your pictures, time stands still. You will be forever in everyone's hearts just as you are. Lively, young.. and that amazing smile is what we will all remember the most.

what up man, miss you alot....

i've been thinking about you a lot lately. i hope you look down on everyone and are happy with what you see. i try to live in a way that i think you would appreciate. i know i often fail, but i'm trying. i hope you're proud. i'm trying to make the most of my blessings and i'm finally take a few steps forward. i learned from you.

Miss you love. You are still my shining star.

I always come here thinking I want to write something, just the stuff that goes through my mind. But, when I get to this page and I see your picture, I just kinda stop and start thinking..are you really gone? That smile on your face seems so real. I almost expect to see you waltz over to me on Sunday mornings in the church basement and help me get my kids out of their coats and help get them all upstairs. I miss that..I just miss knowing you are around.

Yo brother! Been a minute since I wrote, sorry for that. You know how hectic it has been but that's no excuse. I hope you like your brick, I think it came out real nice...even though it's for the Mets! We are still sitting in Reservoir talking about you and the memories that we truly all cherish. Nothing is the same and nothing ever will be but I do know this my brother, you are ok. Until we meet again...peace. Love you Sunil!

What's up brother?? How have you been? I haven't talked to you in a bit. That's probably why i have been screwing up royally this past month!! Just wanted to say hi and hope you can help set me straight.

SUNILA!! So softball sundays have started, and it is so much fun - but also of course reminds me so much of you! Wish you could be here to play and talk smack with us, but I know you are there with us in spirit. The sweltering heat here has been most un-welcoming to my reunion with the east coast...fortunately spending QT with great friends & the fam have made it all worth it. I miss SF at times, but getting reacquainted with NJ living has been pretty smooth. I wish you were here though. This summer is shaping up to be a great one, but I wish you were here to make it even better! I miss you, your contagious laugh and witty banter. I wonder what kind of mischief you've been up to...

Love you! xoxo!

What's up brother! Well, we are start playin in a church softball league on Sunday and it made me think of playin the outfield with you at our church picnic. I know you remember the view we had out there!! Come by on Sunday and watch us play. I know we could def use an angel in the outfield!! I miss you!

Hey Sunil - I have not visited in a while - sorry about that. I was just thinking about you and felt the need to say hello. You are always an inspiration.

I'm reading Mano's comment on softball and I am cracking up. I remember that day. I wondered why on earth you weren't moving when that ball was hit over your head. Then I realized.. Good times.. good times... :)
Miss ya..

We miss you.

What's up buddy? Been thinking about you recently and or St. Louis trip. I'll never forget the "hello" in an Indian accent to those Indian tourists at the Gateway Arch in St. Louis. To this day every time I see a random Indian person, in my head I say hello to them in your indian accent.

I miss you buddy.

What's up sunil, just wanted to say hi and let you know i have been thinking about you. Keep an eye for Tony please. peace brother

I often come to this site and stare at the pics of you smiling and read about you in amazement. You were a true example of how life should really be lived. Thank you for being so inspiring.

I measure every grief I meet
With analytic eyes;
I wonder if it weighs like mine,
Or has an easier size.

I wonder if they bore it long,
Or did it just begin?
I could not tell the date of mine,
It feels so old a pain.

I wonder if it hurts to live,
And if they have to try,
And whether, could they choose between,
They would not rather die.

I wonder if when years have piled--
Some thousands--on the cause
Of early hurt, if such a lapse
Could give them any pause;

Or would they go on aching still
Through centuries above,
Enlightened to a larger pain
By contrast with the love.

The grieved are many, I am told;
The reason deeper lies,--
Death is but one and comes but once
And only nails the eyes.

There's grief of want, and grief of cold,--
A sort they call 'despair,'
There's banishment from native eyes,
In sight of native air.

And though I may not guess the kind
Correctly yet to me
A piercing comfort it affords
In passing Calvary,

To note the fashions of the cross
Of those that stand alone
Still fascinated to presume
That some are like my own.

Emily Dickinson

What's up Sunil? How have you been? Can you do me a favor and look out for my friends? They can use some help right now.. A lot of us can..
Talk to you soon.

YO, we did our part down here and sent up another one of our best. So round up our church members and make sure Boney Uncle is welcomed properly.

Still love you and miss you soooo much.

hey Sunil chettai.. i started my senior year of high school and i just wanted to thank you for helping me get through the past 3. pray for all of us down here and make sure you take care of boney uncle for us. miss ya and love ya... see you soon ♥

Boy, would you be proud today. I hope you are proud today. This has been historic. You would have LOVED this election season. Then again, you are probably sitting with Tim Russert, asking him all the questions we all would want to ask. Best seat in the house.

Lets hope this country makes you proud.

Oh, and I KNOW you are helping Melissa's book sales. Thanks to you her contingent is even bigger tomorrow.

xoxoxoxo

Hey dude...we missed you this weekend in DC...it was one of those weekends that you would have loved...it was just like old times hanging out w/ the Texas folks...except u were not there to make fun or ask Risha what the capital of Texas is??

Hey Sunil - I have not written in a while and wanted to apologize for that. For some reason, I can't get on to the site from work. And considering most of my daily web surf time is spent at work (rather than working for OMW!), I have not been on the site recently. Anyway, I wanted to say hi and tell you that you are always in my thoughts and prayers. Miss you.

24 is back on. Whenever I watch it, I think of you.

"Life has a way of making the foreseeable that which never happens... and the unforeseeable that which your life becomes."

We're headed toward year #3 since you left. It feels like a lifetime really. Just wanted to say hello. I haven't been here on the site for a while. I apologize for that. I hope you're well. Pray for us here going on with the mundane daily routines, especially Aunty and Uncle. They are not the same. However, for Jonathan's sake, keep them happy. Miss you much.

hey! chachey is going to be having her baby this week, bet you are so excited.. i just hope he has your sense of humor! see you soon..

i was just thinking today how you were the first person i called when i got my first cell phone. you were standing on the corner just mere feet away and looked at me with such excitement when you realized i was the person calling you.

we haven't talked in a long time and if you were still around, we'd probably barely talk given the geographic and other kinds of distance. even still, i miss you on days like today.

Hey Sunil,
Just passing by and wanted to say hello.

Hope all is well with you.

God Bless....

Jub :)

Hi sunil!!
I havent visited in a while, and sooo much has happened within that time. We are still aching from losing you, and yet another fresh wound has invaded our hearts..the loss of our dearest boney uncle. Our church has been through a hell of alot! And tomorrow..march 17th, which should be one of the happiest days for me has never been so "happy" since 2006. You have been the first person i thought of on this day and will think of forever, and I will not get up from my bed until i say a prayer for u, ur loving parents, nisse, shinu, and baby jonathan. . We still remember it all as if it happened yesterday. You are missed so much! I hope ur having a great time up there. Give my love and a huge hug and kiss to boney uncle. We love you, and please pray for all of us still going through this tedious game of "life" down here.

Dearest Sunil, 3 years have passed and I still think about you almost every day. I think about what a rich life you lived and how much people loved being around you. You should know that you still inspire me all the time. I miss you so much and am so grateful to have been able to call you my friend. You will always be in my thoughts.

Hi Sunil,
Well, it's midnight 12:00am March 17, 2009 and marks 3 years you have left us brother. I think of you every single day man, and miss you more and more. It's still very hard to believe you're not with us but knowing that you are in a much better place and watching over us is very comforting. I will be going to church in the morning and saying a special prayer for you, your loving parents, Nisse, Shinu, and baby Jonathan. I miss them all so much too and moving to Dallas made it even harder to see them.
Until we meet again my brother, I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU.

miss ya babe

You are always in our hearts.

Another year has passed. But the thoughts never fade away.

you are missed and in our thoughts and prayers...

never thought our time together would be so short. wish you were here.

I still can't forget that dreaded call 3 years ago. Those were awful sounds... tears, sniffles, and phone calls. The silence was dreadful. I'm just thinking about how awful your folks must feel but yet, they continue on with each day. I want to call them but what could I say to help them? What's life really all about? Love, laugh, pray, think good thoughts... I wonder where you are. Come visit when you can. It's been a long time since I've seen you. You really did have answers for everything and you were so diplomatic at all times. I'm sorry your presence is no longer available to us here. I'm just really sorry, especially for those that were closest to you. Your folks, Nisse, Shinu, Josh and the YO boys. Jonathan will know about his great his uncle. Can you help them with your spirit to move on with their lives? Can you help a heart that's broken because they lost a son, a brother, and a friend? Well, that's that. Happy St. Patrick's Day!

I can't believe it's been 3 years...seems just like yesterday. I love you, and wish you were still around. Three years, and still people have not forgotten your memory...you were a real shining star amongst us. I hope you're having fun up there.

3 years later and your memory does not waiver...Only somebody as wonderful as you could have left this type of mark. We all still think about you often, and what a blessing it is to have known you. Until we meet again in paradise my friend...please say hello to my aunt for me.

Three years and roughly four hours since my life changed forever. I still cannot fathom why this happened to him. Why this happened to us? My life has been shaken to the core.

I am not the same person I was three years ago. I am better. I am better because of you my best friend. You always prodded all of us to strive to be the best. However, it took your departure for me to open my eyes.

Every single day I reflect on you and your life. I love sharing old stories of our youth and of our adult life. I speak of you the exact same way I spoke of you when you were around. So yes even now, there are times that I still will make fun of you for one your nuisances.

Sometimes I reflect on how I was able to soldier on with life. It was an unknown task for me since you had been by my side since I was able to remember my own existence. I feel like I have made it this far because indeed you still are part of my life. I have never forgotten; nor will I ever forget what you have meant to me.

I often reflect back to September 1987 and the first day of 4th Grade at Pine Tree. I was so sad at being at a new school that I wanted to cry. I remember walking out of the restroom and then passing Mrs. Diana's classroom and seeing you sitting there. I was so excited to see you because I finally had seen a familiar face after seeing foreign faces for most of the day. It was a feeling of relief. I knew it was going to be OK since my buddy was with me. And yes, I still remember our conversation that first day...
Sunil: "If I see you in school, remember my name is "Su-neeel"
Me: "OK, OK, and don't forget I'm "Jake""

Don't forget me buddy because there is no way I can ever forget you. Much love my Brother!

Olivia turned 3 years old on March 7th. Of course you know that because you were all set to meet her on saturday march 18th. What I rememeber was that you and juiena were planning to come to the house together. You would have loved her. It breaks my heart knowing that you missed out meeting her and your beautiful nephew. Take care sunil and continue to watch over the kids. You are always missed.

we miss you a lot...keep watching out for all of us. we love and miss you so much.

hey buddy. i can't believe its been 3 yrs. so much as changed in our lives, wish you were to be a part of it. i love you buddy. look out for all of us down here.

Sunil chachen, I miss you soooo much, its crazy. I just wish I could see you one more time and laugh with you. I know you are watching over us and everything I do. I love you soo much chachen. You were like an older brother and I wanted to do everything you did. You were a great role model and I have always looked up to you. I know you are doing great in heaven, but you will always be right here in my heart. I really miss you and love you chachen

Don't know what to write. I think of you so often..and my friend Jaya. I'm sure you must have met her up there by now..she was such a loudmouth and social butterfly! I'm sure you guys must be watching over all of us down here.
We're still trying to cope, trying to deal. Asking questions - WHY him? WHY her?
I don't know.

Of course you're in a better place, but it's one thing knowing that in your head, and another thing getting through the days without you guys..

Say hi to all our friends up there. And watch over us.

Glad to see people are still writing here and thinking about you man. Just thought about you today so I thought I'd pay my respects. Miss you bud.

Sunnnnilll!!!

Gonna miss you this weekend bro

jim

It was a great wedding and I know you were there..

Miss you bro!
Love you even more!

Pray for us!

Damn bro...You have the greatest of Friends...

and they all still LOVE you!

You live among and within us.

oh, the Glorious day when we shall meet face to face.

till then brother, pray for us and keep us safe!

Love you!

i had the most vivid dream this morning with you and few others that are no longer with us. it was nice to see you for a brief moment =) every sunday in church i pray that your memories will bring comfort to those that are missing you - take care

Hey Buddy

Its been some time since I've been on this site. This weekend was great and wish you could enjoy the large amount of fried turkey we had. It was fantastic and I'm sure you would have been a happy man.

Look out for us buddy. I love you bro.

Thinking of you always.

heyyy man! i haven't been on this website in forever. i think about you alot though. if i could make one wish i think it would to actually get to know you better cause i think ive actually seeen u in person like once that i can remember maybe more when i was little but i dont remember. but i know your in better place and i know God does everything for a reason and i know your happy! i cant wait till the day i can c u and we can get closer as brothers.. i was reading your homepage thingy and i noticed you were a alter boy just wanted to say that im alter boy too and its about to b 2 years :) i know you would b proud of me and im glad God put in my life even though we barely knew each other but i konw that will change one day!
love you man and you will always be in my heart
love chris
the cousin u picked!

Hi Sunil....i'm singing our fav broadway tunes and thinking of u!

"try not to get worried, try not to hold onto, problems that upset you oh, then you'll feel everything's alright and everything's fine. And i want you to sleep well tonight, let the world turn without you tonight....close your eyes, close your eyes and forget all about us tonight...."

miss you homey :)

Luv,
Rach

Hey Sunil,

Happy Birthday buddy, we celebrated properly on Saturday and I think everyone had a great time. It would've been one of those memorable nights had you been there. I wish you were. Take care friend.

Love,
Josh

Happiest of Birthdays to you!!! Your mom said she bought a card for you. Her sadness breaks my heart. Please try to comfort those whose hearts ache from not having you around.

May God Bless you.

Much Love

Happy Birthday brother!! Well, im sure you were out with us on saturday night and i hope u liked the place jai had picked out. There were lots of ripe smelling indians there and im sure that bothered you, but its hard for FOBS to understand the concept of Right Guard:) I miss you so much. I know u would have had at least three bday parties planned and i would have missed two of them:) But im glad we all got together to celebrate the way u like....I miss u!!!

Happy Birthday Sunil!
Cant wait to see your face again!

Hey man,

Happy Birthday Bro! Miss ya like crazy...but I know your looking out for us as we travel along our paths...

Hey sunil, been a while, just wanted to drop a line and let you know that you are missed, I think about you ofter, and hope that you are doing well up there in heaven!!!

What's up buddy? Saw you in my dream the other night.. i had to do a double take, but i knew it was you. How you been? It's hard down here. I could use some words of wisdom if you wouldn't mind sending some this way. Miss your stupid humor.. :)

Four years has come and gone so quickly. so much has changed, but one constant is that i still miss you so much. i still think about you and how much you brought to my life as a friend. no one can or will ever replace you

Hey buddy...really couldn't sleep so here I am. I miss you soo much. Sometimes I wonder how we all have been able to cope since you left. We've done soo much and still have so much left to do. I know you are here and laughing along with us.

Love you brother...

thought of you and your smile fondly this afternoon...you're still missed and always will be...

Still hard to believe, harder to express, miss you.....

Hey Sunil,

4 years later and I still can replay this day in my mind. I wish that wasn't the case sometimes. Swing by our watering hole tonight if you can, we will be thinking of you.

love you man

Oh sunil...it's been 4 years..and time still hasn't done much "healing" although life forces us to move on with whatever God brings our way. But you know I can never get through this day without thinking about you first. And im replaying that day in my head..unknowingly. You are missed greatly sunil. Say a prayer for me today. And thank the man upstairs for every heartache and every happiness that may come my way. If i get to blow out the candles on my cake today, i will wish it for you.
love and prayers ALWAYS...

Hey Sunil,
It's 4th year buddy since you left us. I truly miss you and Love you. I always think of you but of course you know that. Please provide an additional strength for your parents and Nissie and all your wonderful friends today.
Till we meet again...
Love You Bro!

Hey Sunil Achachen,
I was thinking of you all day today and and how much everyone misses you. Its been 4 very long years without you here and dont ever think that your being forgotten.Rest in peace and watch over each and everyone of us.

miss you, friend. your smile and our talks were always like big hugs.

Can't help but think of you all day today. It makes me sad but in speaking to others, I need to turn that sadness to strength. It's hard to do but I'm trying. Here's to you, Sunil. I miss you.

Even now it doesn't seem real. Sometimes I think you're on a business trip somewhere or we've both just been to busy to see each other...now that I'm in Boston it seems like an entirely plausible explanation. I go through most of my life with this comforting lie in my head until something thrusts the fact that you're gone in my face. Something like March 17th that the rest of the world can celebrate as St. Patty's Day. I never cared about this holiday-it seemed like a pretty random to me although I guess it was fun seeing everyone wear green. But now I hate this date. I can't see of hear this date without being forced to think about you and the fact that you're not here. There's just so much I want to share with you. I've had so many new experiences, thought, and ideas I want to know your opinion of or your advice of- Boston, classes, my dance team, browntown at BU, engineering, my friends, anything and everything. I know you would love to talk to me about my classes and the things I'm learning about no matter how boring most people would think it is. I still remember I'd always be surprised you paid attention to even my stupid stories about middle school and the drama that was going on between the kids. I knew you were paying attention because you didn't just nod and say mhmmm as I said my story, but you'd ask questions about the people. It always caught me off guard, lol I'd be like wait you were really listening??
I don't know, I just miss you a lot...

I hope you're well. I hope you are bringing some relief to Aunty and Uncle. I hope you're attempting to put a smile back on Shinu's face. I haven't seen him smile in 4+ years. I know you're using Jonathan to keep your sis's mind busy, with his poilte demeanor and precious smile. I hope you're smiling down on all of us tediously going through life's phases. What else are we to do?

Hey Little Brother,

I am going to ignore the insane spam that has hit this site but i guess if we have to deal with it down here, you are not beyond it up there...

It's a tough year for sure. Jonathan has lots of questions and requires answers we cannot yet give. He wanted to go to the Post Office and mail you a birthday card this year. I had to explain that when we pray, the message goes straight to you through God. He wants to get a cake and sing but i don't think that is something i can get through.

We had a nice party for you this weekend. It was a Sunil/Tinu joint. I would like to think that if you were still here, you would have started to combine your parties so that a younger version could challenge you to keep up.

Hope you were close by and dancing along.

Another holiday season is here to remind me that you are not.

Miss you.

Chechi

Happy birthday sunil, you are always in the thoughts of all of us. Its hard to not have you here.

next week will mark 5 years of family and friends missing you and thinking of you...i still think of you and your smile...

Good ol'Step-On-Me cleaned up all the spam that got posted here. Your homegirl is still looking out for you buddy. Miss ya

I checked my Calendar today (Which I hardly do these days) and saw that your birthday in Heaven was fast approaching. 5 years huh? It seems like yesterday when you left us. I thank you for all the prayers
during the last 5 years.

How's thirumeni doing? Give him our love will you?

Alright buddy - just wanted to wish you a Happy Birthday. I will see you Sunday as I celebrate Qurbana. Pray for us.

Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
Oh no
No no
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I'd give anything

When someone said count your blessings now
'fore they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Yeah yeah
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last hug
I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling
Who knew
My darling
My darling
Who knew
My darling
I miss you

Hey Sun,
Every year, every holiday, every milestone for Jonathan is yet one more thing that you are physically missing from. Here we are at another countdown...5 years. Does the reality of this ever get any easier?

Looking at the disaster in Japan, I wonder if I should be allowed this grief I still feel. Others have lost entire families; I have lost just one. I pray for them as I pray for you as I pray for us.

This rainy day feels like a U2 day so I have our favorites looped at school today. My poor 7th graders have no clue who U2 is or how much they are missing out on.

Jonathan talks about you a lot now. He has the fear of us going to Heaven with you. I wish he didn't have to. 5 year olds should have fears of things in their closets or under their beds. Not a fear of their parents and families leaving him and going to Heaven.

I miss you so...

Love Chechi

I'm not exactly sure what to say or what I want to say... but hope you're doing good up there. Everyone down here still think of you. Never forgotten... always missed.

Miss ya so much babe...still hurts so much.

Sunil,

A prayer for you, it's so hard to put in words. I don't think the pain ever gets better. miss you, wish you were here. . . .

You will always be in my heart and prayers Sunil.

Today is always so tough. It's my mom's birthday. It was so fun talking to her this AM as she reached her 70th but unfortunately that happiness turned to sadness quite fast. You are always in my thoughts, Sunil. I need to try to stop being sad about it but its just so hard. Thanks for looking down on us, my man. Miss you.

It amazes me, that after 5 years, you still have the greatest set of Friends!

I still remember the moment you came into my life. Just one experience with you that lasted no more than 3 minutes. Thats all I have to remember you. Your humbleness has forever changed my life.

I can't wait to see you again buddy. Until then, continue to pray for us and we shall do the same.

With much respect and love,
Your Friend

sunnnnilll!! that holler will never change and neither will the memory of seeing the smile when you hear it! i miss you bro.

Hey Sunil,
5 years now bro and the pain still remain but I know you are in a better place.
My thoughts and prayers are with ur parents, Niss, Shin, Lil Jon and all your friends today. Sunil,u will always be in my heart and prayers. I MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU DEARLY.

Until we meet again.
Love,
Saji

it amazes me how vividly i remember this very day 5 yrs ago..that when something pierces ur heart so painfully, the wound never fully closes. U are missed dearly sunil. Watch out for the entire world and all catastrophes happening and yet to happen.

Sunil...the best friend I never had the blessing of meeting. I thank the Lord every day for everything you have helped bring into my life...tremendous joy and love. You have turned out to be such an incredible angel. We all miss your physical presence, but rest assured in the fact that we have one of the strongest guardian angels around.

Sunu Chachen, its been 5 years now since you have been gone. I still can't believe this is real. Just yesterday I was thinking about my graduation in a couple of months and how proud you would have been and I know for sure you would have been here no matter what you had to do to get here. You always put your family in front of everything and that is something I will never forget about you. Chachan I really wish I could just talk to you again and hear your stories and tell you everything that has happened to me. I know you would listen because you always listened to everything I had to say and always gave the best advice.

Jicky and I were talking about how you came to Atlanta when we were young and how you would scare Jicky always. He was so scared of you when he was little. It was really funny.

I just miss you chachen, I know you are doing great up there. Keep watching over us. Love you.

Birthdays have not been the same without you Sunil.

I can't help but think of you tonight; ten years ago we sat on my couch, you taught me who Osama Bin Laden was, I didn't even know, and told me that the U.S. needed to take care of this threat. The day has arrived my friend.

So much i want to share with you bro, think about you all the time, my son will always know who you are and i hope one day he can be one tenth of the man you are. Miss you X

this heat reminds me of the day we finally got ac @5th&Douglas 13yrs ago..you didn't have to sleep with your head out the window

That last hug
I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep

Feliz Cumpleanos...Oh, brother...how another year has passed..and we are older but still the same.

We had a great time at your bday party last Friday...but it still was not the same without you.

I still miss you like crazy brother. I wish you were still around to chill with because I def. feel lonely a lot of times.

Happy Birthday my dear best friend. Love will never cease.

Your boy Eli continues to amaze. GMen looked primed for a couple more victories. Can Eli tie Ben for SB Rings?!? haha..and stupid Philip Rivers continues to watch!!

Miss ya brother!

My Dear Bro,
It's six years now and still can't get over it. I'm on my sixth Jack and diet coke. I Love you and MISSSSS YOU so much.

still miss you every day my friend. i think about you all the time and thank you for reminding me how precious life is. few people shined as bright as you.

Yet another year has passed but the memory still remains. You are always in my thoughts, Sunil. I will forever miss your smile and your endearing personality.

6 years. Time blinks by but stands still. I can't get you out of my mind today. So many memories. Do you remember that day when you drove me so crazy when we were kids that I threw the remote at you. I missed hitting you but it smashed and broke. You would remind me and mom and dad every day that I broke the remote when we would have to get up and manually change the channel. Thank God the universal remote was invented. I always remember...the last time I saw you was in my apt in Ct. I was on forced bed rest because the baby was trying to make an early appearance. You were doing your usual pacing back and forth in my little living room waiting for your train. We filled you full of sushi and you were gone in a blink. I never got to see you again. I am so sorry I didn't see you again. I miss seeing you now. Please visit us soon. My dreams are waiting.... love chech

Still remembering you, still missing you. Watch over all of us.

Miss you so much it hurts. Watch out for us. Love you.

I still hear your amazing laugh, still hear that fantastic way you have/had of interrupting a discussion so you can put your point in (i'm gonna spell it "lo lo lo lo lo lo" VERY high pitched!). My son is nearly 2, he lost a very special mentor. I think of you often buddy, your picture is on my desk and nearby always at my home, i look forward to telling Ryan all about you. Hopefully you and my Dad are up there having a lot of good times - a few Jack and Cokes and all that good stuff. Miss you always mate. Much love X

After all these years I am finally following your advice bro. I am sorry I couldn't see that grin on your face after I told you. Wish me luck!

you are still thought of and missed. every day. i look at your warm smile and it reminds me of all the times we laughed together. i'm sad you're gone but so grateful for the the time we had. thanks for inspiring me

Hey big guy,
Im all grown up now. 14 and counting. I have baseball tryouts the 18th. I will be thinking about you. Could you help me out. For tryouts I am writing your initials on my forearm in rememberence of you. Hope to chattin with you soon. Love you and miss you.

Bobert

We're approaching that day that changed our lives forever. The sharp pain when I got the call from my dad asking me to sit down and telling me you were gone is still fresh. We miss you so much. I wish i had more time with you, more time to get advice, more time to hear you making fun of me hyperventilating when trying to talk a child. Your memory remains eternal.